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I just want to start off by saying Thanks if you are reading this. I didn't start this to have a following or anything, just a place to where my thoughts could go and if anybody wanted to read, then they would have the opportunity. So many things are going on right now its kind of hard on where to begin. Daniel and I are expecting our first child here at the end of May. Yes, that is only like 4.5 months away!! And yes, we are not ready at all. I haven't bought one single "need" item yet. I disappoint myself every time I think about it. I have always thought of myself as a planner, and this is a major planning thing and I haven't even started. Its like I am so overwhelmed that i am just washing my hands of it for now. " Like, I will get to it later." I can't wait til later!! She will be here in less than 5 months and I have nothing!! I have always been confident in the fact I knew kids. I mean, I have been babysitting since I was 14. I have even had friends who had kids tell me I knew more about kids than they did!! Now my own will be here in no time and I am scared & nervous that I don't know what to do. How crazy?! So many options of stuff and different people say different things that I have no idea what to listen to or what is best for my baby. I hope these jitters leave soon, I have too much other stuff on my mind as well. I lost my job back before Christmas. I'm pretty sure it was because I'm pregnant, but I won't say that entirely. Now I have been tossing around the thought of going to nursing school. I am an EMT already and enjoy it so I thought it may be the next step. I have researched it and I can get it done in a year if I stick to it full time. Its just the fact if we could afford me going to school with a baby here. I am praying about it and whatever God's plan is, I will do. I could always go back to work somewhere but I kinda want to go back to school. I started back in August and quit in October b/c my Dr. thought it was best I wait til after the baby got here before I did the program. I know I could go back and do that if I wanted. I mean I had the highest grade in the class for almost the whole time I was there. I am pretty good at school if I set myself to it and I know I would be a good nurse. I know people that are nurses and I wondered how they ever made it through nursing school because they didn't seem to grasp on to the material. I have faith that I can and I have been told I would make a great nurse. Whatever happens will happen and God won't give us more than what we can handle. I have a supporting husband, family and friends so i know we will be OK. I will write more at a later date. Gotta get this baby girl's room ready! Hope you all have a blessed day!